Woman credits India's vibrant colours for rekindling joy after four years in Canada

Colour has come back into my life, and I didn't know how much I needed it
Mohandas reflects on the shift from four years of neutral workplace aesthetics in Canada to India's visual abundance.
Mark

When you say colour disappeared from your life in Canada, do you mean people literally wore less of it, or that you felt you couldn't?

Mimi

Both, I think. The workplace culture was very neutral. But I also internalized it. I stopped reaching for the bright things in my closet because I was absorbing a message about what was appropriate.

Mark

And that felt like a loss?

Mimi

I didn't realize it was a loss until I came back. Then I put on a red dress and it felt like permission I didn't know I'd given up.

Mark

Do you think that's about India specifically, or about coming home?

Mimi

Maybe they're the same thing. India is visually loud and unapologetic about it. That loudness gave me permission to be loud too.

Mark

Some people in the comments said they keep colour in their lives no matter where they are. Does that feel true to you now?

Mimi

It does now. But I wasn't that person in Canada. I had adapted. I think environment shapes us more than we admit.

  • After four years of muted workplace palettes in Canada, Mohandas returned to India and felt something she hadn't realised was missing snap back into place the moment she wore a red dress.
  • Her Instagram video ignited rapid recognition across the diaspora — people from the US, Japan, and Canada surfacing years of quietly suppressed chromatic longing.
  • A counter-voice in the comments complicated the picture, arguing that colour is a choice one can protect anywhere, raising the harder question of whether conformity is imposed or gradually, willingly absorbed.
  • What began as one woman's observation has widened into a collective reckoning: the visual environment is not a backdrop to identity but an active force shaping emotional wellbeing and self-expression for those living far from home.

When Mohini Mohandas returned to India after four years in Canada, she discovered that what she had quietly surrendered was not merely a wardrobe preference but a dimension of selfhood — the freedom to exist in colour. Her Instagram reflection on trading beige and greige for red dresses and sequined abundance touched something many expatriates had felt but never named: that the visual culture surrounding us shapes not just how we dress, but how fully we inhabit ourselves. The conversation she sparked sits at the intersection of geography, belonging, and the quiet negotiations we make to fit into places that were not built with us in mind.

Mohini Mohandas had expected to miss many things about India during her four years in Canada — the food, the festivals, perhaps the weather. What she hadn't anticipated was how much she would miss colour. When she returned and posted a video about it on Instagram, the response told her she had named something many people had been carrying without words.

In Canada, she had worn beige, grey, white, and greige to work — not because any rule demanded it, but because the workplace seemed to expect it, and blending in felt safer than standing out. Back in India, she put on a red dress and blue nail polish, walked through an exhibition full of unapologetic greens, pinks, and purples, and felt something she described as her soul reigniting. Her caption — 'Colour is apparently restricted to Hollywood' — was a joke, but it pointed at something real about how certain places permit visual expression while others quietly discourage it.

The comments filled with recognition. People who had lived in the US and Japan wrote about the same deprivation. Someone joked they had switched their Instagram to black and white after moving to Canada — a small, darkly funny concession to their new aesthetic environment. But one commenter offered a different view: colour deprivation was not inevitable, they said; it was a choice, and they had always worn the brightest outfits regardless of which country they called home.

That pushback opened the more difficult question underneath the whole conversation: is the absence of colour something geography imposes, or something we accept because we have slowly internalised the expectation? Mohandas's video suggested the answer is probably both — and that recognising the loss is the first step toward reclaiming what was quietly given away.

Mohini Mohandas stepped off a plane in India after four years in Canada and noticed something she hadn't expected to miss: colour. Not the food, not the festivals, not even the weather. It was the simple, everyday presence of visual brightness—in the clothes people wore, in the nail polish on their hands, in the sheer chromatic abundance of a crowded street or a shop window. She posted a video about it on Instagram, and something in that observation struck a chord.

In the clip, Mohandas describes the shift with the clarity of someone who has just named something she couldn't quite articulate before. For four years in Canada, she had worn beige, grey, white, and greige to work. Day after day, the same muted palette. It was not a rule written down anywhere. It was simply what the workplace seemed to expect, what blended in, what was safe. Then she came home to India and wore a red dress and blue nail polish. She went to an exhibition and saw clothes in every conceivable shade of green, blue, pink, and purple—all of them bright, all of them unapologetic. There was sequin work, shiny details, visual abundance everywhere. "I did not realise how much life that would bring back into me," she said, "and how it would reignite my soul until I moved back."

The video's caption carried a wry edge: "Colour is apparently restricted to Hollywood." It was a joke, but it was also a statement about something real—the way certain geographies seem to permit visual expression while others discourage it, or at least make it feel risky. The comments section filled quickly with people recognizing themselves in her words. "Welcome back to maximalism and yellow sunlight," one person wrote. Another: "I miss the colours in India so much. I have lived in the US and Japan, and there is so little colour here." Someone else called it an underrated topic. "Colour brings so much life and positive energy," they said.

But not everyone saw it that way. One commenter pushed back gently, noting that colour deprivation was not inevitable—it was a choice. "I make sure to keep colour in my life wherever I am," they wrote. "I always wear the brightest colours and the blingiest outfits because I choose to be authentically myself, whether I am in Canada or India." It was a fair point, and it opened up a more complicated question: Is the absence of colour something imposed by geography and workplace culture, or something we accept because we have internalized the expectation? Probably both.

The thread revealed a pattern among people who had lived abroad. One person had spent ten years in Canada and thought about India's festivals and colours every single day. Another had lived in the US and Japan and felt the same deprivation. Someone else joked that they had switched their Instagram profile to black and white after moving to Canada—a small, darkly funny surrender to the aesthetic of their new home. What emerged was not a simple story of one woman missing colour, but a broader recognition among expatriates that the visual environment shapes how you feel, how you present yourself, and perhaps even who you become. Mohandas had named something that others had felt but not quite articulated: that colour is not frivolous, that it is not merely decorative, that it is bound up with joy and self-expression and the permission to take up space. And for her, moving back to India meant reclaiming that permission.

I did not realise how much life that would bring back into me and how it would reignite my soul until I moved back
— Mohini Mohandas
I make sure to keep colour in my life wherever I am. I always wear the brightest colours and the blingiest outfits because I choose to be authentically myself
— Instagram commenter
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